Wednesday, July 30, 2003
So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke
your love life's D.O.A
2-It's like you're always stuck in second gear
Oh when it hasn't been your day
Your week, your month, or even your year
1-I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me, too
You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far things are going great
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
But she didn't tell you when the world
Has brought you down to your knees
No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you
F.R.I.E.N.D.S rule!!! haha...
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Saturday, July 26, 2003
people are sooo.... i dunno.
thanks jian! i love you sooooo much! thanks for keeping your shoulders there. i know i may talk crap but you still listen. thanks. *big grin*
it's amazing how a book can give you sooo much knowledge. no, im not refering to textbooks. im talking about novels. how really good writers can make you open your eyes into a whole new way of looking at different things. sometimes, reading them even makes you feel smart.
anyhoo, i really havent been feeling very well about my self. i may have br harsh on the world right now. but who can blame me? the world's harsh on me to boot. but then, eka's right. how are we supposed to feel total bliss if we havent felt the opposite, right? whatever..
went to princess' crib last friday. it was really fun. bonding moments with princess (duhrr!), fatzi, racquel, cyril (yup,nipayagan cia!) and gen (and ralph..ahe..). we went swimming, inuman, watched legally blonde 2, hung out in her PINK room, checked out her closet, saw the little twins, and... ATE!!!! there was hella lot of food!
after around 10 minutes when we got there, her mom's special baked macaroni and cheese was served up. yummmm ever! tas we ordered from macdonalds, tas food while swimming (sarap nun) with san mig light, then dinner. *whew!
we talked about a hella lot of things. fun things, annoying things, using one's brains, the philippine's economy, our "eksperiyensya" at "paanyaya", anoyying things, bithces and bastards, and a more.
anyway, ama go.. i need to be doing my parish involvement documentation.
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Friday, July 25, 2003
WALANG COUP DE E'TAT!!!
haha..
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Thursday, July 24, 2003
i feel like crap..
i'm proud of my seatmate. love you! *big grin*
i love ryan phillipe. *dreamy, far-off look*
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Tuesday, July 22, 2003
Isa pa tong Lab report eh..
erg. received chastisement from Ms. Pike earlier about not exerting effort to do something as a class. It was freaky. She was mad but not personally. Which was worse, 'cause she was right. eek! Oh well.
I dont know the format for the letter for the practices for Music. ARGH! I am soooo irresponsible. kill me now!
I'm getting used to these short posts.. *smiles*
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Monday, July 21, 2003
Isang Malaking Hassle Ang FOTO-ME!!!
garabe! niayaw pa ko ng kuya ko. erg!!! good thing my uncle's here. rarrr...
anyhoo, i pretty much dont have a lot to say. really. i dont.
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Thursday, July 17, 2003
0716 : galleria with eka, syd, janella and inna
0717 : acquiantance party of MYCA
0718 : kme ni emmy! class presentation for songfest. eek!
0719 : leadership training. GA (MTQers)
0720 : wala
0726 : marty! aha.. laugh!
harr.. fun ng life ko no? waha..
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Wednesday, July 16, 2003
I didnt get in trouble! wahoo! hurrah for me!
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Tuesday, July 15, 2003
I have a BIG secret!
Aha! I have a secret! And I'm keeping it. Haha! I know. I'm screwed. Real bad.
I'm in that sad-yet-I-can-manage-to-laugh kinda mood. Something just kicks you at your ass while your having a good time. It's honestly a really friggin mood to get in to. Erg!
When you gain new friends does that mean you have to lose others? Harsh noh? I mean, and weird lang. Sad, actually. I never get to talk to other people nowadays. Like Sam and Peachy.. Especially Peachy. Gakk! Weird noh?
Haven't even been seeing much of Jian before dismissal today. Kaya I was really happy 'cause we were being really crazy and maybe papansin na to others but it was really great! I swear! I really haven't been spending time with her. *Sigh* I love that girl.
Signing out.... Have to eat. Harr.
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Monday, July 14, 2003
Bump bump bump
ackk.. major lss. it hasn't stopped yet. it's becoming a craze! this day has been sooooo tiring yet friggin fun! i've been laughing almost the whole day. and i've been real loud. dunno why. gakk..
everyone's getting sick nowadays its scary!
last weekend, i sooo didnt stay in the house!!! wee! ate a lot.. yummm.. i love it when relatives are around. bummer nga eh.. papa omeng already fled to new york this morning. huhu.. mama baby, mama emma, joey and victor'll be leaving tomorrow! oh no! why am i at home? i should be eating dinner with them! nooooo! we took a cab to get home, actually, so i have no idea where people are..
agh! no! i wanna go out! i am really in no mood to study these past few days. erg nga eh. especially now that relatives are here, so they're going out and shit. and where am i? at home! ack! daya.. eveyone else except me and inna are in college so their schedules are more flexible.. eek! irita!!!!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, July 12, 2003
I'm too lazy and f*cked up to post 'nythin right now.
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Friday, July 11, 2003
Dorothy Dorotan
who the freakin' hell is that? euch!
confused? --> we had our elections for batch representative earlier. eh since all class reps are nominees by default, my freakin name had to be written all over the 10 classroom's board. i wasnt paying much attention when ms. de castro was writing the names on the board. then people started laughing.
Rm 8 - Dorothy Dorotan
who the hell is she? erg. then i started babbling on ms. de castro on how she should know my name since i was her "child" and shit. she said she knew that my name was maria gabriela dorotan but ms. dupet told her that it wasnt. duhrr! ms dupet has been my adviser for 2 years noh!
and since i didnt want the whole batch thinking my name was dorothy so i went to room 9. i knocked and said excuse me and their teacher just stared at me for a second or two then continued reading whatever the freak ass thing she was reading. i just stood there. calysta and other people were raising their hands and she asked me what i wanted. i asked if i could just see the list of the class reps and she was like, "Bket? Sino nagpapakuha?" edi i said i just wanted to check if there were any corrections. they had my name right! *grins*
so i assumed that it was only our class which had a certain Dorothy Dorotan of III-8. tas during recess people were telling me that they had a Dorothy Dorotan registered in their class. erg!!!!! but it wasnt in all rooms.
fucccc it. magbibigay nalang ng pangalan shit pa!
anyway, i'm starting to love my class. *smiles widely* i mean, there may be some people there i dont get along with much but i'm starting to love the room as a whole. ihee. excite. astig!!!
ooh! happy birthday to my really good friends EMMY and ALANNA! *kisses both of you* love you guys! yanna's mom brought food for lunch earlier! 3 pan pizzas and over 20 canned drinks. aha! yummmm.
anyway, ama shut the fuccccc up already.
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Thursday, July 10, 2003
aha.. the new tamplate is sooo... blah. good thing i like the colors. pffssh.
this friggin sucks! we were supposed to go to power tonight but no one was willing to pay. actually, kuya abel wasnt willing to pay. erg! sucks! i havent done any of my schoolworks except copy notes from my ever-crazy seatmate eka. (yikee.. lapit na.. ihee.) dang! it's hella hot.
i was hella annoyed earlier this afternoon it was creepy. i was in the annoyed, no-i'm-sleepy tactic -using ass earlier. but as if that wasn't freaked up enough. i was still able to laugh and talk to people without being all snappy amd bitchy (which is why i never approach people when i am in the freaky state). maybe this time the reason for my vexation was real. maybe this time, there was a reason but an undesired reason, the not-to-be-shared-with-others kind of reason.
surprisingly uncanny? try being inna for a day and see how she manages my goddamned thoughts.
i was never really the type who couldn't keep things to herself. i've always, unconciously, kept hidden different emotions and thoughts that i didnt think appropriate to tell anyone else. why bother bearing the trouble? *shrugs* i honestly don't know. am i trying to protect myself? my reputation eccentric temperament? who knows.
someday i hope i'll know. but in the meantime, i'll try.
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Wednesday, July 09, 2003
Wee! New template! Worked on it with Inna's help. Aha! Ibig sabihin may contribution ako! wahooo! hurrah for me!
I need to talk to someone.. No one ever calls me. boohoo. sad ko.. i have tons to kwento pa man din.. aha.. feeling may tatawag na sken if i actually do that. pffsshhh...
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Kanlungan
Panapanahon ng pagkakataon, maibabalik ba ang kahapon
Natatandaan mo pa ba, nang tayong dal'wa
ay unang magkita panahon ng kamusmusan,
sa poling ng mga bulaklak at halaman doon
tayo nagsimula, mangarap at tumula
Natatandaan mo pa ba, inukit kong puso sa
punong mangga at ang inalay kong gumamela,
magkahawak kamay sa dalampasigan
malayang tulad ng mga ibon ang gunit ng ating kahapon.
Ang mga puno't halaman ay kabiyak ng
ating gunita sa paglipas ng panahon
bakit kailangan ding lumisan.
Panapanahon ng pagkakataon, maibabalik ba and kahapon
Ngayong ikaw ay nagbalik,
katulad ko rin ang 'yong pananabik
Makita ang dating kanlungan,
tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap ngayon
ay naglaho na, saan hahanapin pa.
Lumilipas ang panahon kabiyak
ng ating gunita ang mga puno't halaman
bakit kailangang lumisan
Panapanahon ng pagkakataon, maibabalik ba ang kahapon
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Tuesday, July 08, 2003
WARNING: This is going to be one hell of a post. It'll be rather long. If you feel that bored, then read on. If otherwise, just tag or sign my guestbook. (*snickers*)
Friday, 4th of July
With Kuya Abel driving, Ate Abey at the passenger seat, me, Inna, Wawie and Nonoy at the backseat of our green CR-V, we made our way to Bicol. It was a convoy. (In the pick-up: T'yo Onyo, Papa Pet, T'ya Santa, May and T'ya Pina.) We stopped at the Petron Station at South Super Highway for gas, food, and uh, other neccessities. After long hours of sleeping, waking up, singing along with the tune playing, and chewing gum, we had breakfast at Bigg's at Naga.
Saturday, 5th of July
Our arrival was greeted with lots of kisses and hugs from aunts, uncles and other relatives.
After taking a shower and eating, everyone present in the vicinity was called to the banghouse for a short "meeting." While having the said meeting, more relatives came. (more kisses, hugs and greetings.)
I recieved a message from Lala: D2 kme sa gate.
I went out to meet them. (mooore kisses and hugs).
Me, Inna, Lala, Dawn and Mean dropped by my lola's house where her body was and walked to Jimros where we had our usual Halo-halo and food. After stuffing ourselves greatly, we walked to Lala's house. We also went to Papa Roque's house as promised. There, we goofed up playing pool. It was kinda hilarious given that none of us really knew how to play. eek! After what seemed like a few minutes, my brothers and other cousins arrived. They took over the pool table, now playing the real game. We then took off and decided to hit Dawn's place. There, we (or they, rather) played the guitar, sang, goofed around and slept. After the glorious nap, we took pictures at their lawn. They were freakin' crazy, the pictures, and hilarious.
Mean went home after that while Lala, Dawn, Inna and me walked to my house. After a few minutes, Lala and Dawn decided to go home.
We then rushed to "the big house" (what we call lola's house, although it isnt exactly big) to catch the mass.
Me, Inna, Manay Grace, Ate AK, Nonoy, Wawie, Kuya Migs, Joey and Victor stayed up until 5:30 in the morning that day. Irony: it was fun. We played war and poker, laughed at Ate Ak, who was sleeping, listened to Joey's cd(his band) and this crazy cd he made, got hooked to nuts, watermelon's and squash's seeds and talked.
Sunday, 6th of July
Due to absence of sleep the previous night, we drove back to our house to sleep.
I woke up at around noon, took a shower and ate. (Met Tita Anna over lunch. *wink*).
Joey, Victor, Manay Grace, Wawie, Nonoy, Ate Abey and all my siblings went out to Bigo (our beach) to, well, look around and eat/drink buko and we stopped over a Valley View to take pictures.
We, then, went to the church to recieve mass.
Then we dropped by our house and we were told to go to Papa Roque's place for dinner. After eating, we walked to lola's house to, once again, catch mass.
At around 9, we were called for a meeting by Mama Tutan. (Meeting:me and my cousins). We talked about how the last mass, burial and the parade was gonna go. There were so many of us, though, that it was hard for everyone to hear. And, we'd stop quite frequently to take pictures. It was (irony.. again..) fun.
Then we were asked to go upstairs, to where lola's body was. We took pictures with lola's casket. After settling down, songs were offered to lola, both solo and chorus, (we even sang bahay kubo since Papa Oner and Kuya Ali knew the song--Turkish.), Joey and Kuya Ali played the guitar, and people shared their memories of Lola. It was filled with both sadness and happiness, tears and laughters.
It was cut by the arrival of Solis. (pffsh). I'll stop there.
Then we went home to sleep since we had to start early for the next day.
Monday, 7th of July
I woke up, took a shower and put on my black pants, black tube top and white polo(which came over the tube). It was funny though, cause Mama Emma kept pestering people about what they were wearing. (They made Manay Grace change a lot.) And when we saw Papa Omeng, all he was wearing was a white shirt, khaki pants and rubber shoes (which seemed new).
We went to lola's house and took pictures ulit, we didnt smile then. It was formal, and we were too sad to do so. Then we walked behind lola's casket, which was being carried by her male children, inside this abaca ribbon thing towards the Church. Once in the church, we stayed outside and waited for about 30 minutes until the mass started. During the whole time, Matthew (my nephew) kept hitting people they started calling him an attack dog. Anyway, when the mass finally started, we marched through the aisle and sat where we were assigned to. Everyone cried, of course, including me. After the mass, we brought lola's remains to the cemetary in the same manner we brought her up the church. There, final blessings were given and flowers were thrown in with her. Tears rolled in almost everyone's cheeks.
Papa Boy's remains were also blessed.
We went home to eat, and we ate quite well. Before everyone went off, we had family pictures taken at our lawn. The funny thing was, Papa Edwin called Papa Anson, who already left and asked him where they were. They were quite a distance off already bu tdecided to turn back and join. Gosh.. camera hungry family ba?
Then last farewells were given and off people went.
We did too. My parents, uncles and aunts were the ones left to clean up. (Hah! With Joey and Victor!)
It was again, another convoy. Saj's car and ours. I was in Saj's with Ate Maya, Inna, Ate Ak, and Manay Grace. Kuya Abel, Ate Abey, Ate Alu, Kuya Migs, Nonoy, Wawie, May and Papa Pet were in the other car. We had to take turns to sleep cause we didnt want Saj to drive without anyone up.
We had dinner at Bigg's at Naga. Again.
I slept, woke up, slept and woke up surprised at the condo without Ate Ak and Manay Grace. It was Kuya Migs who was with us in the car. We got off and transffered all the bags into the civic. We parted with Ate Maya and Saj and went home. We arrived at around 3:30 in the morning already.
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Friday, July 04, 2003
shit. ang guapo ni ryan phillipe. dang! mine! mine! mine! heck..
its raining hard and we still have to drive up to irosin in a few minutes. scary.. eek! aww.. i miss alanna's talking rugrats watch! huhu..
leave it to me to utter the most shallow thoughts words could manage.
i miss sam already. she's been absent for 2 days. sad.. love you girl! sana maabot mo pedals ng vios mo. joke. heehee.
i have not been feeling very literate in the longest time. and i've been feeling very lazy. i'm weird. for the past few days, i've been the reading kind a mood. its either i read or i write. weird. they just dont come together. cause when you read then you decide to write, you'd just feel low cause the pieces you start writing becomes a piece of crap next to the hella well-written books you've been raving over.
books can give you even the slightest glimpse of heaven--or hell. the magical world words bring to your own world and your guise developement.
i am such a dork.
there. reluctantly admitted. hoping to be proven wrong.
astig! i sooo had fun with aves this morning. i missed her too much. we laughed together 'cause... i have no idea. i just missed her.
and.. peachy.. thanks for the favors.. heehee. i know hassle na ko. patawad. thanks!üüü just hollah when you need me. you know my number. miss you!
ang funny ni jian earlier. ang freak ng nipaggagawa. heehee. sherring. onga pla.. galit pla ko dun. *hurmph*
astig! someone buy me an elle woods barbie.. go! it comes with her chihuahua.. heehee.
i'll stop. this is becoming dragging.
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Tuesday, July 01, 2003
to everyone..
please pray for my lola. she passed away earlier.
lola, we miss you!
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