Wednesday, March 31, 2004
General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed but I don't that seems to me love is everywhere. Igniting laughter, wrecking havoc, breaking hearts, daring commitments, forcing choices, catapulting spirits, forging inroads, creating risks-ecstatic, exciting, unexpected, unwelcome, inconvenient, inexplicable, inelegant, unequal.
LOVE ACTUALLY IS ALL AROUND.
This movie is freakishly too good and hella schmaltzy. I swear. I love it! Haha.
Seriously, though. Watch!
By the way, Rowan Atkinson (Mr. Bean! :D) was amazing. Haha.
Fall in Love
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Eeewww.. I smell like shit!
I slept extremely late *errrmm* this morning, trying to get a move on Deception Point (Dan Brown). Despite my sister's endless assertion that the book isn't half as good as The Da Vinci Code, I'm still reading it. There are a lot of scientific babbles, though. Nyeta, I'm not even half-way through it yet.
I had a 10-hour sleep, making me wake up sometime around noon. :D
I turned up in school at around 1:30. Hooked up with Cams, Ross and whozzit(?) till we were called inside the gym and were arranged alphabetically. I ended up sitting and talking to Main. :D She's fun. Haha.
After talking to Main, marching up, shaking hands with Ms. Cendana, bowing, and walking back to my chair (during which I was sweating my ass off), the practice was over. Yay!
Passed by Micidy's at Eastwood (Hot Fudge Sundae and Fries!! Wooh!) and got home. Guess what my mom was doing? Yea, cleaning. The room looks hella neat now. :D Ahh, my mom's magic worked again. But then, not enough to make Ate AK fix her things neat enough.
Inna and I'll be stuck at home tonight. Mom has a meeting to go to. She's the only one here right now.
Hmmm... We'll probably drown ourselve with Smallville. :D Haha.
Btw, Ate Abey was here earlier and she was getting teary eyed and all. Crap. I'm extra super duper gonna miss her. :s
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Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Okay. I'm back...
My parent's younger friend just had an heart attack in Bangkok. That's just plain scary.
My mom found out this afternoon. She's been either texting or talking on the phone since then before leaving for her meeting. :s She was kinda freaked pa 'cause she's been trying to contanct Tita Eden, the wife, without any success. So she texted her about staying strong and stuff. Then she was suddenly on the phone... *eeerie....
Dude-on-the-phone: Tita?
Mama: Yes? Who's this?
Dude: Francis po.
Mama: Oh, Francis, anong year mo na?
Francis: Third year po. Tita, what happened to my dad?
Mama: Uh, I heard he got sick, eh, or something... I'll check up on it muna ah...
My mom hangs the phone up.
Goodness... she was super kabado, not knowing what to say to him. Yiiiiikess...
Papa suddenly commically added, "Tsk, sayang. Ba't di nalang si Enrile o si Maceda?" Haha. Leave it to Papa screech out at akward times.
Then we were suddenly talking about this guy who jumped off the 39th floor of Building A of Robinson's Place in Manila. Scary... It was oddly funny pa 'cause how Ate Maya, who lives in the same building, found out. She was supposed to go buy food at Mini Stop in her pambahay when she saw her friend. Her friend was like, "Maya, don't go down like that! Dami photographers and stuff eh." Gakkk.. Yah, whatta concern pare.
What else do I say? Hmmm... Tama na.. I'm outtiee...
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Goodness! This day's been a bit tiring and hella HOT. Ackk...
Summer. One of the deadly seasons for one of my mom's infamous "general cleanings". That means a hella lot of sweating, dirt and orders. And the worst part is... it ain't over yet. *Shivers.. Haha.
By the way, because I love my sister too much... I shall give in to her demand to link her site 'cause she finally drew up enough patience to change her template (which she personally made. :D). So... click here
I need to be in school tomorrow. Can I handle being in school in the summer? Rarrrr...
Crap! More food... Nyeta, what do I do to maintain my faultless, flawless, ideal, perfect body? Haha. Yeah right Aggie, that's a huge laugh on you face. HA-HA.
Anyway, I gotta slipt. Shakey's waiting for me. I can't keep him waiting... *wink...
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Saturday, March 27, 2004
I just found a new pasttime: SMALLVILLE. Haha. Tom Welling is H-O-T. Yes! Hottttt!!!! Haha. And did I mention he's totally hot?
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By the way, there's this horny dude named Alyssa.Two Fernandez at Friendster who's using Kat Cannon's pictures. She's freaking mad man! Ugh. Suuuufffffffer pare! Suffer. Haha. I sound like a total bitch.
Nyeta, Eka texted me earlier about this dude. Oh no! She's super pathetic man! I swear. Ama waste three more words for you: Get. Over. It.
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Question Everything
-Eight Stops Seven
Ever since I was a child
You always said that I should understand the rules
You take some and give less
Sit high above the rest...don't you
As I ask a simple question
Cuts me off with his reply
He's been practicing for decades
Now he thinks I have the time
He flows in and out of riddles
Looking me straight in the eye
But it seems like something's missing
From the days when he was more my size
Ten years older and I've finally found my pride
This old man comes rolling home to die
Old feelings make it hard to decide
Just what it means to me
Everything exists 'tween black and white
You can twist and distort the most blatant of lies
Or just offer up solutions
Practiced only in your mind
I lost half my life to wisdom
So forgive me if I
Come off sounding bitter
If my words push you away
If I seem surprised to see you
Lying here in front of me
Just consider what you're asking
And give me a little time
I'm still having trouble breathing
Cuz up to now I've never seen you cry
No son of mine Should I be sleeping
No son of mine As if you never understood
That I don't need your help
Don't have to save me from myself
Or take me out to prove
That I should live my life like you
As I ask a simple question
Cuts me off with his reply
He's been practicing for decades
But I am listening this time
He flows in and out of riddles
Stories change without the wine
But at least he seems much clearer on
How it feels to be my size
Ten years older and I've finally found my pride
This old man comes rolling home to die
Old feelings make it harder to see
Just what it means to me
What it means to me
Why do I have this weird feeling that I've got a lot to prove?
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Friday, March 26, 2004
Was looking through my barkada's pictures and I suddenly missed them. Rarr.. I love my barkada like hell. Seriously. Haha. We're all malabo and crap but we complement each other. :D Haha. I love how shallow we get sometimes.
Nyeta, I'm just super loving my friends right now. :D
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Yesterday was my Kuya's grad. :D Wee!
Ate AK, Me, Kuya Abel, Ate Abey and Andrea.
I have 3 siblings graduating this year. Happy! Happy! Joy! Joy!
Anyhoo, I didn't get to watch Kuya Abe march up in his toga 'cause I, unfortunately, am not special enough to be one of the 4 people allowed to go in. Whatta rule man! Don't they realize that there are BIG families here? I guess that's why they made up such rule. *Sighs...
Was stuck at home till six with Inna and Ate Carol when my cousins arrived. Then we were on our way to Saisaki at EDSA at seven. The traffic was pretty bad so it took us longer to get there. Dick Gordon was there. WOW! Haha.
Ate Abey's family was there except Ate Be-ay, her twins sister. :D Cool noh? Haha. Good thing last night wasn't the first time we'd be meeting them. The first was a bit over a year ago and my dad didn't do too well. He had these weird lines man! Haha.
Oh, and Ate Abey got Kuya Abel a techno watch. Nyeta! We knew beforehand, though. Hehe. Kuya Abe was pretty much blown away. Haha.
I looooove Ate Abey. She's gonna be leaving soon though. For good. Huhu. Poor Kuya. I'm super gonna miss her. :s They've been together for almost 3 years now. Bwaha. Everyone's asking if they're getting married soon. Haha. I guess it wont be much of surprise if they do, though.
Moooooving on, we have a puppy. :D Yes, here. At our relatively small home. :D Haha. Everyone was loving her at first but they kinda pushed her out when they found out she lacked, well, uh, breed(???). Hehe. More like.... ASKAL siya, pare. *wink. Haha. She's cute though.
Anyhoo, today's Ate Abey's grad. :D Woweee. They all get this Ateneo medallion. :D Haha. Was weirdly fascinated by that.
By the way, I'll be expecting a lot of visitors this summer. Haha. Why?
For those who availed of the photo packages for the "BSA", I'll be giving them out. You'll hear from me. *wink.
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Thursday, March 25, 2004
Guess who's back? Haha. Been away in glorious Baguio. :D Wooh!
Here's a list of the best things to do in Baguio:
1. Sleep
2. Eat
3. Read
4. Eat
5. Watch Real Madrid's games... more like watch Beckham play. *giggles.
6. Sleep
7. Shower (no kidding)
8. Eat
9. Sleep
10. Walk around
Haha. Seriously though... we didn't even get to shop. Yeah.. bummer. Came home without chocolate flakes, lengua de gata and strawberry-less. Nyeta.
I should probably shut right now. Try not to ruin things to say, you know...
Now this is what you call not in the mood.
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Monday, March 22, 2004
Was cleaning out my school stuff and I found this. Naaliw lang ako, so bear with me.
Darkness overpowering my very entity
Emptiness filling up my so-called heart
Ambivalence raging through my mind
Twists of lies rummaging through my life
Hands loosen from a clenched fist-Ah, yes, defeat.
Driven by futile thoughts
Endeavors are now at loss
Ample amount of guilt endlessly nagging
Time chases you, killing you
Halt! You're starting to die!
Deeds are gone
Everything's a blur
An omnipotent mind need to truly perceive
The rebuttal to all of life's questions
Haning into the thinnest of hope
D
E
A
D
Can you feel me now?
There. I can't believe that's what I thought of dying. Crap. And the Halt thing's a huge joke. Haha.
It's 3 already. Gotta wake up in 2 hours. Hah..
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Oookay. The prom's over. Twas fun. :D Spent practically the whole night lining up for the freaking pictures with sina Eka, Lawrence and Andro. It was tiring though.
Amidst all the fun I had here's a list of bummers:
1. No alcohol for the night.
2. No after party. :c
2.a. Missed going out with my barakada, who went to Greenbelt.
2.b. Didn't get to go out with Eka and Lawrence, like we were planning to.
3. I didn't like my how hair and makeup was done.
4. I didn't know I was supposed to be giving out the souvenirs for the class.
Anyway, I'll be hiking way up to Baguio in 5 hours. It's gonna be just me, Inna, and my parents. Wooh! How cool is that? Staying at the Manor. Yay!
*Sigh... This is weird coming from me but its true. (Yah, Eka). I'm super irritated with my family right now. *Shrinks..... Nyeta. Specially my mom. She was blabbing on how we've always lacked initiative to clean up and crap; that all we do is bum around the house. Ever... Blah..
But then I lightened up 'cause people started soming home. :D Maybe that's it. I hate being at home when the house's empty. I swear. I was super happy nga when umiingay na bahay ko eh. Haha. There.
Anyway, I'm starting to get nocturnal. This isn't good.
My nails are still pretty. :D Heehee. Yeah, I'm shallow like that.
Wee!
Ekarazy and me. :D MagkaBERKS na kme. Haha. Eeew. That sounds too gross.
Haha. Lost. Just wanted to post that..
Ooh! More.. Here's 2 of the best couples I know...
Nakana Eka! You guys have a picture in my blog. Ackkk.. That's way too weird. Haha. Special.
Rarrr... I'll try updating in Baguio. :D
*kisses...
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Thursday, March 18, 2004
Been a long time coming...
Managed to thieve a slot for Psych after waking up freaking early. Early enough to visit our old friend McDonalds at St. Francis Square. It was super funny pa 'cause we took a cab to and from McDonalds; not knowing it was Alanna's first time taking a cab. Haha. She wasnt saying anything tas we had her stay in front pa! Haha. I just happen to find that extremely funny.
Anyway, my dress looks better now. It's still super simple, though. It's purple, runs dwon till under my knees, thin strap, and flowy bottom. :D You know what word matches simple? Accessorize Oh yeah! Haha. But that, I havent thought about yet. Crap. Haven't even set for an appointment with the salon. Shit. And my nails are still undone. Double shit.
What else do I say? Oh yeah. My family. Stress man! First off, I doubt my dad knows we're having our prom tomorrow. Second, my mom's still contemplating on why "prom nowadays" are given that much importance. Third, I don't think Ate Maya's gonna be here tomorrow. Fourth, I'm not sure if Ate Alu has a class tomorrow, which ends pretty late at night. Fifth, uh, nothing about Ate Ak. Fifth, Kuya Abel wants Inna and I to freaking get into body tights and bring Kuya Migs along. (Yeah right! Good thing he's in Baguio right now.) Sixth, Kuya Migs. He's sweet nga eh. He decided to come home tomorrow to see us off. Aww... There. That's involvement for you from the Casanova-Dorotan Family. Haha. Yea, we growing up.
Here's a song... :D
Something About You
Five For Fighting
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there... to see you
I don't know where to dig in
I don't know how to get in there...to feel you
It's been to long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been to long and I'm in time, I'm in time
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to I'm
Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to I'm
Going to hold on to that
I never thought I would win
I never thought much about that
(It's been a long time coming)
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process
(It's been a long time coming)
It's been to long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been to long and I'm in time, I'm in time
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to I'm
Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to I'm
Going to hold on to that
And I'm going to be there...
Be there... alright... alright...
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to I'm
Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to I'm
Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to I'm
Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to I'm
Going to hold on to that
I'm going to hold on to that
If you happen to hate this song, you better thank God you dont live with me. :D Haha.
School's over. Summer's here.
I'm gonna miss everyone.
I'm gonna miss Kiara's, uh, hair. (?)
I'm gonna miss Fatzi's undeniably funny remarks.
I'm gonna miss Michelle's responsible face. (Laboo. May ganun ba?)
I'm gonna miss Joyce's freakishly cool personality.
I'm gonna miss Beebop's super cute smile.
I'm gonna miss Gen's vain, arte, slow self.
I'm gonna miss Liza's quiet, but not so quiet nature.
I'm gonna miss Jennifer's way of making your day beautiful.
I'm gonna miss Luanne's endless nagging for reply slips, my frenzied remarks for her, and the wonderful art she makes out of my hair. :D
I'm gonna miss Kryzelle's outlandish craziness. Seriously.
I'm gonna miss Eka's jaunty ass that perks up with her curls. :D I'm gonna miss both our sensible and insensible yaks. Rarrr. Damn. Eka's one of the best sources of ecstasy I've fallen upon this school year. You damn right she's amazing. Love you much, you know that. Take care for me, alright?
I'm gonna miss Xeena's amazing stance and her recognizable easiness.
I'm gonna miss Aprille's most incredible smile and the hand gestures she always does when talking to you. :D
I'm gonna miss Ysabelle's exuberance and exceptionality.
I'm gonna miss Lia's laugh! Shitter. Yihee, pretty. :D
I'm gonna miss Sam more now.
I'm gonna miss Racquel's unpredictability and randomness :D Thanks for the chocolate :D
I'm gonna miss Jannica's skinny, tall, running self.
I'm gonna miss Carla's super unique way of showing her beauty.
I'm gonna miss J.Anne's mallows and her new phone. Haha.
I'm gonna miss Cyril's huge, positive outlook on life which has infinitely given me reasons to look up on life. Lotsa love, cy. :D
I'm gonna miss Charmaine's super sweet voice and personality.
I'm gonna miss Jarra's partying, sexy, outgoing self.
I'm gonna miss Anna's remarkable intelligence and persona.
I'm gonna miss Karla's super kulit, exang outgoing, harworking, todo responsible, talkative self. Haha. I will miss you.
I'm gonna miss Timmy's uh... I'm betting we'd be classmates again next year but... here.. I'll miss your pausos and your patience with me whether I be sleeping or talking to you. You've been amazing, pare! :D
I'm gonna miss Kathoy's everthing. Laboo.. Okay lang yan, we talk on the phone na people! Haha. No seriously, for those who don't know... Kathoy's been a HUGE part of my growth man! :D Love her to bits.
I'm gonna miss Joy's deep tagalog words.
I'm gonna miss Sydney's sexy, dancing body. I'm super gonna miss the moments where we just goof around doing nothing. I'm gonna miss you!!! But hey! I got my share of memories of the fair. Haha. Love you soooo much!
I'm gonna miss Janella's uh... ba? Joke. Haha. I'll be seeing you around, though, wont I?
I'm gonna miss Kat's extra kulit skinny face. Haha. Kat's taught me a lot. She mayn't realize this but she's taught me to enjoy life amidst all the hassles it throws you off with. Thanks. Love you.
I'm gonna miss Gem's super deep dimples, her undying supply of mentos, her bangag, yet super smart self. I've grown used to us talking everyday now. :D Love yah.
I'm gonna miss Pam's mirror and her funny(/mean) comments about my nails.
I'm gonna miss Laureen's long, beautiful hair and her super warm smile.
I'm gonna miss Hazel's mirror and her wide range supply of everything. Haha.
I'm gonna miss Raisa's super weird, jokey self. Haha.
I'm gonna miss K-Anne. Crap you, I really am gonna miss you. Shit. I know I didn't look too serious when I told you I was gonna miss last Wed but I am. Thanks for everything. I swear. You've given a lot. And I'm thankful for every bite of cake I stash away from your cake box. God, I wont forget the long hours we spent at Prin's room talking lang. Crap. I admire your independence and your humility. *Salutes* You're the best!
I'm gonna miss Kaye's super white, quiet self.
I'm gonna miss Cams' extra simple, astonishing beauty and values.
Heck yea I'm gonna miss Prin. Go figure man.
There. I'm gonna miss my room. I've learned and received more than I could ever imagine from all of you. Thanks a bunch. :D
Anyhoo, it's late. Been trying to finish this entry practically the whole day.
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Sunday, March 14, 2004
Shit.
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Unfortunately Untitled
-Erika Dizon
My existence will forever be confined in blissful memories of you,
For yours is the only love I recognize as true.
Distance will not threaten the love that I have for you
Though I know it will crush me
The life I came to know is the life I have to set free.
I beg you not to feel remorse for the way you hold my entity,
For I chose to face undesirable agony
I take in every word that you utter, every bit of ecstacy you bring
For in your absence, these memories I will sing.
I dread that someday you will leave me lost, unable to recognize myself;
The person you have always believe was of incredible cost
The person that I am is teh onw who has grown with you.
It's sad and tragic, yet undeniably true
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Ahhh! Been listening to Five for Fighting for the last hour and a half trying to get the right words into my head so I could actually sing it. Haha. Nope, not working too well, though.
I'm kinda still pissed about life. Well, pissed isnt the right word for it. I've been pretty much frustrated about everything, but mostly at myself. Crud. Save me. I'm in the not-wanting-to-talk-about-it state 'cause I cant find a rational reason for my feelings. Ackkkk..
Anyway, life's tough.
Tomorrow's the Noli play. Crap. I am sooo not ready for this. Friday, last day of "classes"; culminating activity for English. Weekend: Screw my head up studying. *Sunday: I get my dress.* Mon-Thurs: FUCKING EXAMINATIONS!!! Crap man!
Rarrr.... I super don't get myself anymore. I feel like I know what I'm doing's wrong but I end up not doing anything about it. It's either that of I just dont realize what I'm doing's wrong.
Ahhhh! Help me! It seems that I've lost my sense of morality. Crap. I'm losing myself.
It's been a long time coming.
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Monday, March 08, 2004
Shit. I was super hating life today. Gakk...
Like what I told Kathoy, I'm super buang already. I swear! I'm losing my mind! I hate futility. I hate not doing anything 'cause it makes me think--and I hate thinking 'cause they make me go crazy. Like this other day, I was walking beside Inna when I suddenly blurted out how fascinating walking was; how it was so rational and logical. Tangina! Yeah, that's what happens to you when you don't start looking for a life anytime soon.
I hate not getting to do anything with my life. Actually, I hate having to wait for my life to begin. Shit.
*When I lost hope you were there to remind me, this is the start.... And life is a road, and I wanna keep going, Love is a river-I wanna keep flowing, Life is a road now and forever at the beginning. *
Hmmm... Reminds me of someone. Damn.
Anyway, instead of getting myself pressured with school and shit, I decided to start reading Veronika Decides to Die. *winks, thanks eka! :D* The book somehow convinced me that system and organization is pure twaddle. But the irony was that I was practically blowing my head off today 'cause we didnt have any procedure, let alone order for the Noli Me Tangere play. Eeeeehhhh!!!
Another bummer's that I was super taray, especially after classes today. Gackk... I dunno how they could even manage dealing with me. Shitter. Making myself look bad--that's what I do best! Haha.
I wont lie to you-I am excited for the "BSA"/prom thing, albeit the absence of any sign of preparations. Hah! We'll deal with the dress tomorrow. Yay! Iono, I guess I just wanna start having fun! :D Whee! Oh, the thought of the succinctness of 2 weeks before summer bliss! *Sigh...
I wanna stop studying but I dont wanna ruin things, now that we're on the last leg of the race. I wanna stop caring but that's just ludicrous. I wanna give up but I dont. Crap.
Kathoy was telling me about this movie with Ben Affleck in it, (Changing Lanes?) and the story's super screwed man! What happens is Affleck and this guy gets into a car crash. Well, both of them were on their way to somewhere important and they ended up ruining each other's lives. Damn. Now that's what you call harsh!
Btw, after 2 hours of serious dancing, I got a fucking blister man! Shitter. We didnt even get a good mark for the "routine" we made. Hackkkk...
Ooh! I wanna share something... I got this from Fatzi while we were presenting for the English practical test. It's a fucked up pick up line. Haha.
Hey! Are you from Meralco?
...Cause you light up my life.
Haha. Sharing. I'm out. I gots ta sleep! ;)
Btw, finally got the picture from punta fuego.. Haha. After 10 centuries. :D
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Friday, March 05, 2004
*Sigh... Hell week... here I come.
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Thursday, March 04, 2004
Wee! Bubbleworld (whatever the hell that is). Haha.
Changed the layout 'cause the eggs ditched me. :s
Anyhoo, skipped lunch to print the script for Noli Me Tangere. Geez... Ended up with Kat, Cy, Luanne, Prin, Gen and Eka. Haha. We were super ingay. Swear. We were laughing at... well, a few futile forms of being. We had nothing better to do so... the bitches run out the MIC. Haha.
Check Eka's blog... I entered a few lexis. :D
Am out.. :D
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Monday, March 01, 2004
Shit. I'm typing the script for our class presentation of the last chapters of the ever stressful Noli Me Tangere.
Can I just say I started dozing off after the 2nd page? SHIT!!!!
What a lame-oh man! Shitter.
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